And Once Again...

Hello Stranger,

       Sorry for delay. Once again I let my blog fall to the wayside. So much to tell and so much to catch up on.  Well first things first Miami came and went. Miami was amazing and a much needed break, however not a whole lot happened in my love life. The real drama happened before I left for my trip. Urban Cowboy as you may know had agreed to keep things between he and I platonic. We both knew that any attempt at more than friendship would be futile. Our reasons for being friends went like this;

1. He just broke up with his girlfriend of 5 years only 2 months ago!!! - Red Flag
2. He is moving to Colorado by the end of the Summer
3. I wanted to be single for Miami
4. I am anti-relationship at the moment
5. I am leaving for London in less than 2 months.

So there you have five extremely good and logical reasons for why Urban Cowboy and I should not be getting involved. Things seemed to be going great for awhile, we had even developed nicknames for each other and talking about other guys and girls in our lives. However as my experience has always proved, once again Urban Cowboy has contributed to the evidence that Men and Women can't be just friends.
     There I was packing all of my heels and cocktail dresses into my suitcase for Miami when I receive an eight message long text from Urban Cowboy. In it he declared that he has feelings that are much more than friendly and that he can't stop thinking about me and wanting to be around me. He proposed that we try out the romance thing and honestly his proposal was tempting and sweet. I told him that yes I had some feelings for him that I was unsure of. I couldn't tell if what I was feeling was romantic or just confusion at the fact that Urban Cowboy was my only friend here in Dallas. I asked for time to contemplate his offer and suggested that we take a break until I returned from Miami. He agreed and we parted ways.
      During my time in Miami there were times when I tried to digest the thought that I may have a boyfriend when I returned home. It was comforting, but at the same time I knew that this was my year for myself. I wanted to back pack through Europe and really focus on my dreams and career. In a sense I was totally trying to have my very own "Eat, Pray, Love" year. This was a fact that I could not ignore. As much as I might like Urban Cowboy, I need to love myself more and really work on devoting this time to me. Once I realized this I knew what I had to do. Sorry Urban Cowboy it's just terrible timing.
            When I returned home to Dallas I met up with Urban Cowboy at a coffee shop on Fry Street. I was prepared to deliver the disappointing news, but I was surprised to find that the subject matter never came up. This frustrated me to no end. On top of that Urban Cowboy began to remind me of the White Knight. Urban Cowboy was sullen and moody! Almost everything that he said was negative. I couldn't even talk about music without him disagreeing with me and casting a few judgmental looks. In short I knew I had made the right decision. Urban Cowboy had nothing going for him. I asked him how his spring break was and his response was that it sucked. "How was work?" I asked, his response was that it sucked as well and then went on to tell me about how he drank almost every night... wow dude, get some self respect and do something about your life if you hate it. I am ridiculously sick of people who just complain and drink their lives away. If you don't respect yourself, then why should I? Also you aren't really making a great case for why I should consider you dating material.
       It has been a few days now, and still his attitude hasn't changed and when I asked if we should talk about "us" he replied that he wasn't in the mood...case closed.
    Stay tuned for an update on Miami from Tiger Lily herself. She definitely had much more loving than I did. Also I was able to discern a clear cut winner in the "Friend" and "Miami" triangle. Miami boy wins hands down. Probably one of the cutest and sweetest guys I have met. I am team Miami and Tiger Lily has my full support.

Until Next Time...hopefully sooner than later
Just Another Girl